Me: Under Construction


I will not be taking a break this Christmas. No, the Grinch didn’t steal my break as this picture may imply. Instead, For a month and half, I will be slowing getting my life together and checking things off my bucket list. There are so many things I want to do and , call me crazy, but I want to start young.

I started going to these lectures about people who started their own business or just did great things in general and I found one common thread: They didn’t wait. They didn’t wait for approval from their friends and family. They didn’t wait for everything to be financially perfect in their life. They didn’t wait for a someone else to find info. They just did the dang thing (I’m laying off cursing ^__^). 

But honestly, I think that’s the difference between successful people and those who are just so-so. Successful people are constantly evolving, changing, and starting new things even if ALL the circumstances aren’t perfect in their lives or in the world. They take chances.  Sometimes they win. Sometimes they lost. But taking the chance is ABOSLUTELY necessary. Without that failure is 100% guaranteed.

So in an effort to take my own advice and follow in the footsteps of all the successful people who have come before me, I’m taking a chance and making some moves.

In the words of Drake, “I just want to be successful…”

P.S. – Okay, I didn’t need the Grinch picture, but I like the Grinch *shrugs*



It’s 4 am in Boston and I know I’m going to hate myself for staying up this late, but oh well. Sometimes you have to share when something life changing happens to you.

Im an only child so I always knew I could be selfish more often than most, but I never saw my self as egotistical or self centered. Those adjectives seemed too severe to describe a little childhood flaw. So I went through life, doing what I wanted to do when I wanted to do it.When people distanced themselves from me, I wondered why, but ultimately came to the conclusiom that THEY had the problem. For months, I was afraid of really knowing and addressing the real issue. But one day I did. I came calmly and respectfully to someone who’d been around me for a long time and asked her why she had a problem with me.

She brought forth an avalanche of issues dealing with my complete disregard of those around me. She told me, as nicely as she could, that it was “who I was” that was the problem. My whole mindset was self centered and this mindset enabled me to say and do anything to those around me without regard to their feelings. She was right. I never thought about how I came off to other people because, frankly, I didn’t care. In middle school, I was teased and bullied often and was afraid to speak up for myself. When I did get the courage to defend myself, I was surprised that people started to respect me. They stopped teasing me and began to see me as an equal. It was then that I vowed that I would always tell the truth no matter what. Over time, the pendulum swung too far. My honesty became insensitivity, my insensitivity became outright rudeness.

The famous line of Michael Jackson’s song, “Man in the Mirror”, goes “I’m gonna make a change, for once my life…”. There are points in life when you have to change, but these moments don’t just happen once in your life. They happen over and over again. I thought I had finally shed my timid, insecure middle school persona and become the strong, opinionated woman that people would want to befriend. But I found that I had actually changed from “the bullied” to the “the bully”. I had to change. Again.

Change isn’t easy. The first step is having an open heart and mind. I regretted that this girl had not told me earlier about my behavior.  I wouldn’t have an opportunity to show her that I could change, but I realized she didn’t matter at all. I believe in God and I believe he puts some people in your life to teach you the leassons you need to learn when you need to learn them. I looked back and realized she wasn’t the first person to attempt to relay this message. But I wasn’t ready to really hear it and apply it to my life.

I’m not completely reformed. I still find myself thinking selfish thoughts, but at least now I know that listening is more important than speaking.

As of now I am a work in progress. But, I suppose we all are.

Arkansas State Representative: Slavery Was A ‘Blessing In Disguise’ For ‘The Blacks’

By Josh Israel


el on Oct 9, 2012 at 9:45 am


Arkansas State Rep. Jon Hubbard (R)

Arkansas State Rep. Jon Hubbard (R)

In his 2010 book Letters to the Editor: Confessions of a Frustrated Conservative, Arkansas State Rep. Jon Hubbard (R-Jonesboro) revealed that he believes slavery was a blessing in disguise and that African Americans do not value education. 

The Arkansas Times reports that Hubbard writes in his book:

Slavery was good for black people:

“… the institution of slavery that the black race has long believed to be an abomination upon its people may actually have been a blessing in disguise. The blacks who could endure those conditions and circumstances would someday be rewarded with citizenship in the greatest nation ever established upon the face of the Earth.” (Pages 183-89)

If you think slavery was bad, you should have seen Africa:

African Americans must “understand that even while in the throes of slavery, their lives as Americans are likely much better than they ever would have enjoyed living in sub-Saharan Africa.” “Knowing what we know today about life on the African continent, would an existence spent in slavery have been any crueler than a life spent in sub-Saharan Africa?” (Pages 93 and 189)

Black people are ignorant:

“Wouldn’t life for blacks in America today be more enjoyable and successful if they would only learn to appreciate the value of a good education?” (Page 184)

Other opinions revealed in his book include his beliefs that integrated schools have hurt white students and that “the immigration issue, both legal and illegal… will lead to planned wars or extermination.”

Hubbard, who is up for re-election this November, responded to the revelations, telling a local TV station: “They attacked me because I’m a conservative, and they’ve taken small portions of my book out of context, and distorted what was said to make it appear that I am racist, which is totally and completely false.”

Apparently, Hubbard may not be alone in this thinking. His fellow Arkansas State Rep. Loy Mauch (R-Bismarck) wrote a series of letters to the editor defending slavery, writing in 2009 “If slavery were so God-awful, why didn’t Jesus or Paul condemn it, why was it in the Constitution and why wasn’t there a war before 1861?” And while not advocating slavery, Arkansas state House candidate and former State Rep. Charlie Fuqua’s (R) book God’s Law: The Only Political Solution proposes that all Muslim-Americans should be expelled from the United States and that “rebellious children” should be subject to capital punishment. Both are also on the ballot this November.

The Arkansas Times notes that these candidates have all received significant party support.

“Evey: Who are you?
V. : Who? Who is but the form following the function of what and what I am is a man in a mask.
Evey: Well I can see that.
V. : Of course you can, I’m not questioning your powers of observation, I’m merely remarking upon the paradox of asking a masked man who he is.
Evey: Oh, right.

– V for Vendetta